In so many ways this month has flown by, and in so many ways it’s been creeping along. One thing I didn’t want to happen with this whole writing every single day thing was for me to be absent from my *real* life in order to be present for my *online* life. And overall I think some semblance of normal was maintained.
In many ways, I’ve actually been more focused at each thing I’m doing, trying to be present, and live in the moment, if you will. I’ve actually said yes to so many things, and not just blog worthy things. But things like reading to Landis and playing games with him, taking my kids outside or lingering at the park. I’ve almost been more on top of doing the laundry and keeping my kitchen clean because I was so afraid I would let everything else slide. I even cleaned out my garage this month, AND took a very large load to the Salvation Army. That’s focus (and I’m kicking myself that I didn’t take before and after pictures because I really feel like broadcasting how much effort that whole process was).
It’s been quite an experience stretching myself–exploring the city parks and stores, learning new and weird things from my friends (Kombucha???), dancing a little at a concert, fearing for my life on a mountain bike, risking myself and delivering baked goodies to the laundry lady with a Bible verse on a card (update: she completely ignored me when I went back to pick up laundry. these things don’t always have the desired effect I had planned for), getting my hands dirty in my garden, trying poached eggs and scallops, revisiting an old restaurant… Deep breath, this month has been rich and full. And I’m tired.
But I hope it was encouraging to you to be willing to stretch yourself a little, because what I learned is that it’s usually way better than imagined, especially if it’s enjoyed with friends. I really prayed over this whole thing, as usual, because my heart’s desire is that this space would be an encouragement to you. And also a place where I can enjoy the creative process of writing and working with words and images. There are always doubts in my mind as to whether or not I should keep going with this blogging thing, especially up until this month, I was almost ready to give it up.
But then I’m faced with the question of where would I write? Writing has become such a huge part of my thinking process and my growth in daily living. Some people need to talk it out, some people need to paint, some people need all sorts of outlets to help process their life, and while I dabble in many things, writing is the way it all comes together for me. And blogging is such an amazing way to connect with other people and join in on the conversation.
I want to keep writing, I love it! So this blog will keep going, as long as the Lord allows. I’m excited about making changes to it in the near future, so don’t be surprised if it gets somewhat quiet on this space for a bit (you need a break from me, for sure!), and if it gets a little facelift within the next month. I have some ideas for regular things to post on, and I’m looking forward to expanding on my ideas.
With all this, my overarching goal is to keep Christ preemenint. I’ve been reading through the book of Colossians, and then my mom up and mentioned the idea of making sure Christ is preeminent in your life, taken from Colossians 3:18, “…that in all things He may have the preeminence.” And that’s it, that’s what I want to happen here on my blog, and in all parts of my life. I want it to flow together, I want to share and encourage, and I want it to uplift Christ. I want Him to be the reason any of what I do happens, and I want you to know that.
So thanks for reading. It’s been a long month and I’m sure you are tired of hearing from me by now, some of you probably checked out a long time ago, and I completely understand. But I’ll be back soon, with less frequency, of course. The comfort zone topic will be put to rest for a time (I sort of want to bury it), although it will come up now and then because, this is my life, and God is always pushing me beyond what I’m comfortable with, for my good and His glory.